This week

So, this week I have been spending time in God's word and praying A LOT! I've asked a couple of other people to pray with me, because I feel like I have way too many decisions to make and I'm afraid of making the wrong decision. The more I pray about it I feel as though not one decision is the wrong one, it's just trying to decide what would God prefer over another. As I pray and seek Gods word I keep coming across something very interesting. I know that God has a sense of humor, but seriously - haha can't he be a little bit more specific? The church plant that I'm attending has been going through the book of Ephesians. I have continued reading and right now I am stuck on Ephesians chapter 4:1-5

"As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. 2 Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3 Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4 There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; 5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism; 6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all."

As I read this over and over trying to understand and hear the voice of God I just keep thinking "I have a calling and God urges me to life out that calling, but right now he's not giving me a specific place, time, what to do". It's really driving me crazy! When I was 19yrs old I make a commitment before hundreds of young people that I would from that day on commit my life to full-time ministry. Of course the full-time ministry part didn't come until 5years later.

Anyways, my point is I know that I have a calling and I know that at one time I had a calling to Afghanistan and it came with some clarity. I knew that I had to fulfill that 2 year commitment and after that I had no idea what God might have in-store. I know that great things are to come and I need to continue searching and seeking after his will for my life.

Hopefully, by this time next week I will be writing another update of where I'm heading next.

Anyways, hope you are enjoying a walk in my shoes :)

Sarah

My hearts Desires

have you ever played the game of life?? It's one of my favorite games and I think I like it so much, because I sometimes imagine that my life would be so like that. You grow up, go to college, get a job, get married, have lots of babies and grand-babies then you retire. Unfortunately my life has not turned out like that. I went through school and worked a great job and have has some amazing life experiences, but sometimes I feel like I'm still missing out. Man, I want to be married and have a family so so so bad. It drives me crazy when people tell me "don't worry your time will come God's preparing the best man for you". Gosh, am I that complicated that it's taken my whole life so far for this to happen? I honestly have no idea why God hasn't allowed me to be at a place for this to happen. Sometimes, okay a lot of times I feel like throwing in the towel and just finding someone and living my life here in the states raising my little family. Of course I know that God has called me to do greater things, but it really SUCKS. Every day I'm praying for "that man" no matter where he may be. Some would say "you need to put yourself in a place where you can find men who are called to missions". Well, I tried to do that and met a great guy who has a huge heart for missions, but isn't ready to make the plunge. I'm already making the plunge and on my way out again. Maybe I make too much of a big deal about this and I really don't dwell on it all the time. It just pisses me off when I see ALL OF MY FRIENDS getting married and already having their 2nd and 3rd child. Yes, I am soooo happy for them and I love their children and their children love me. It's just a hard place to be at times. Maybe it would be different if I were not 28yrs old. Maybe if I were like 18-or 25. It might not sting as much. I also hate it when people tell me "You are still sooo young and you can still have children" Yeah, and then people forget the reality of having children as you're older. You are at a MUCH HIGHER RISK for children to be born with Down Syndrome or many other health problems. last night I met a lady who was like "I just always knew that I was going to be a mother" she's now pregnant with her 3rd child and is a step mother to 2 daughter. Wow, I was a bit envious of her.. On the inside I was weeping and thinking "God, I've been wanting this for so long and it seems like a lost cause". Maybe some of you are reading this and maybe none of y'all are. If you are I ask that you PLEASE pray with me or for me. Pray for peace and contentment in my own heart. Pray that God will fulfill these desires.

Sarah

Relations take a lot of work

Relationships - Relationships can be really complicated at times....Sometimes I think to myself "What's the point of trying to maintain a new relationship when they take so much effort?" I have a very dear friend of mine who's in a similar boat as I am. We are both in our late 20's and still have not given the opportunity to fall in love with the most amazing man ever and get married. It's a daily prayer of mine and I keep hoping that one day it's going to come to pass. Last night I was out with this friend and she's been dealing with a lot of guy drama lately and I'm just going with the flow of what's happening in my own life. We started talking about eharmony and how she doesn't feel like she should have to sign up for a dating site to meet the man of her dreams. I personally felt the same way for awhile and realize something needs to change. I do believe in a great big God, but I also believe that he gives us a brain and different ways that I can fall in love other then waiting for that one man to just land on our door step. One observation that I've made it that ..... DATING and RELATIONSHIP are not talked about in church and if it is talked about people make it seem like you are committing a carnal sin or something. Relationships are a beautiful thing and it breaks my heart to see why it's not talked about in a nice way. It seems that if you mention anything about dating to anyone at church they cringe and look down on you. C'MON PEOPLE WAKE UP! God freaking created us to LOVE and to BE LOVED and relationships are very near and dear to his heart. He created US TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP with HIM. Yeah, not all relationships will work out and sometimes you may walk away wishing things had turned out better, but no matter what you can still turn back to our creator. I am seeing that the single women in the church are having to step up and pursue the man. Why on earth should I have to pursue a man????

Happy New Years

I can't believe that it's already 2011 - it seems like the last 3 years of my life have just flown by. Some memories are much better then others and I'm getting very acquainted with the phrase "Just roll with the punches". To ring in the new year I was attending a conference in Kansas City, Mo called ONETHING. All week long we heard some great teachings and super amazing worship jam sessions. If you know me very well then you'd know that I am a super duper fan of COREY ASBURY. On the very last night he led worship and let me tell you - He is one of the most talented and anointed worship leaders that I have ever worshiped with. This very night on December 31, 2010 I had just a small taste of what heaven on earth will be like. What an experience to be able to worship with 28,000 believers on new years eve? Was sooo much better then some other new years eve horror stories that I've heard about the last few days. I thank my Lord for being able to share this event with 2 very dear friends of mine Hannah Whattoff and Diana Marcus. We met 3 years ago when we all did our DTS in New Zealand together. I saw Hannah one other time at the airport in Chicago, but haven't seen Diana since I said goodbye 3 Decembers ago. It was a sweet reunion and I couldn't have asked for better friends to spend it with. Along with spending the week with these 2 fabulous women I also got to have lunch with an old youth group friend. She has been in the Kansas City are for about 4 years now and the last time we saw each other was 7 years ago. Friday evening I was able to have dinner with my former team leaders Jachin and Sarah. It was soo much fun I wished that we had so much more time to spend together. During the week I ran into some other random people that I was in Germany with. It was fun to catch up with them since leaving Germany back in May. Well, this concludes my first of many post. I haven't written in awhile and have quite a bit to share and a lot of things rattling in my brain. Carpe Diem!

An occasion to celebrate

Hi everyone, it's been a little while since I've posted anything...Last I wrote it was an update of what's been going on for the last months that I've been home. I've been in a waiting period for a little while and I'm starting to get a bit antsy. Just tonight I shared some things with my parents, but need to clear with my board before I can share with everyone else.

As most of you well know on Monday was my birthday and I had a great time celebrating with some close girl friends of mine. We went to this placed called SIPandPaint (www.sipandpaint.com) and you basically all get a white canvas and paint a design on it. If you've browsed through my pictures recently you probably saw the painting. Some of you may know this about me, but I tend to be a rebel at times and stir things up. hahahha (evil laugh). Everyone else was following the instructions and painting their pot orange and me being the rebel I am decided to paint mine green :D. To say the least we all had a great time and made some wonderful memories to remember for years to come.

Another exciting thing I did this week was go to a Chris Tomlin Live Christmas Concert Tour and he started it off with a bang here in NOLA. What a way to start off a tour right??? All of the songs were up on the screens for us to sing along and Chris wanted it to be one big worship concert to our Jesus. He said "I'm not here to sing for you and you're not here to sing for me, we are all here for worship Jesus in this house".

During the middle of the christmas worship session Louis Giglio came and shared. He spoke on Luke 2. As we all know it's the christmas story. One thing that impressed me the most was when he started talking about the 400yr silence between the old testament and the new testament. To us believers it's just one flip of a page, but to God and the people living during those 400years it was complete silence from God. Can you imagine that for 400years God never spoke out? Wow, it hit home like nothing else. All the time I am complaining because I don't hear always hear the voice of God very clearly and generations upon generations of people never got to experience hearing the voice of God. It wasn't until 400years on the night that Jesus our SAVIOR of the world
was born a God spoke through a crying baby.

Hey everyone,

How's life now that the holidays and the new year are fast
approaching???

Gosh, It's been a really long while since I've sent out a HUGE update
and I sincerely ask for your uttermost forgiveness.

I'll give you a quick synopsis of what's been going on these last few
months. I say quick because I'd hate to bore you to tears (not
literally).

So, lets see.. I came home June 28th after dealing with a lot of
craziness. My world pretty much fell apart once I realized that I
wouldn't be going back to the Guesthouse ever for again (or for a very
long time).Last year I left with the expectation of returning and that
was shattered big time. I grieved a lot and went through some debrief
and counseling.

Once returning home I spent awhile just recovering for having a terrible
case of bronchitis and just figuring things out. I was really suffering
in my relationship with God and felt like I had nothing left of me. I
really felt very beaten from Satan and just life in general. It was the
2nd time to be home in 2 years and it diff took some adjustment. Had to
deal with a lot of expectations and some were even false.

In August I took a trip around the East Coast of America or Ameriker
(depending on where you are from in this great big world). It was such a
sweet time to visit with best friends, family, friends like family, and
LG (life Groups) at my former church. I had lot of opportunities to
share what God did, is doing, and will continue to do in and through me.

Once October rolled around I was finally starting to get settled into
the American way when God was like "nope, it's time to get moving
again". So as most of you know I attended a Financial Boot-camp through
an org. called "The Body Builders". It was 2 days jam packed with lots
and lots of very useful tools and tips to help me be fully funded. I
stayed with some friends family and they took such great care of me. For
those 2 days they really blessed me and made me feel like I was one of
theirs. I Love, love, love how the christian really knows how to step up
and help fellow body members.

As soon as I got back from the Boot-camp in Arkansas 4 days later I flew
up to Colorado Springs, Co to visit my friend Jamie. It was a great time
to spend with her while her husband is away on work. She has become such
a good friend of mine and as well her family welcomed me in. By the end
of the 2 weeks we were all sad that I was leaving. All summer I had been
trying to get to Co and just wasn't working out. I didn't have the
finances or god just didn't want me to be there at that time. It worked
out just so that I have the money and the time to make it out there ( I
love how God orchestrates our lives). Needless to say I was able to meet
with heaps of people and really see how "Time heals all wounds". Some of
these people I hadn't seen in over a year and the relationships ended on
a sore note. It was so great to see them again and know that when God is
your main focus he heals those wounds in our lives.

Thank you all so much for your love and support for me.
It's been a joy being a part of your lives and vice verse. I have some
great things happening in my life that I am not quite ready to share
with every one. Some things are still being prayed about and lots of
e-mailing is taking place. Once I know pretty sure what my next steps
are going to look like I'll be sure to tell you.

Much love to you all,
Sarah Wofford